I am But I Dont...

I know i am. But i dont. I know i am. But i dont. I know i am. But i dont. I know i am. But i dont. I know i am...but i dont. I know i am falling for you. but at the same time i dont. and i dont want to be. i know i like you and you are always on my mind. but i dont know about hers. should i love when i know it could kill? she may get hurt but she needs to know i think about him all the time...i love him.

i do

<333Kiley

All My Lies...

Ive told my share of lies. i dont want to be held up anymore. none of you know who is on the inside but im willing to let you to. if i have lied do we all have lies? tell me your lies. i know my friends have them. i know he has them. i know ive thought things and realized they arent true. is that lying? is it lying to myslef? i feel like i have been so ask me anything now. no more secrets im done.
<333Kiley

Dont Make It Harder Than It Is....

Don't say you love me. I know its a lie. Your family wants this, I don't. I never thought it would be you. I wished it would be but I never believed myself. Lots of people lie to me and I'm done with it. Short, sweet, and to the point. I'm done.
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Keep Secrets
Keep Lies
Keep Love
Keep Trouble
Keep Breathing
Keep Hope
Keep Thoughts
Keep Dreams but most importantly
Keep Me. You know i like you. they told you many times. is it to much to ask you tell me you dont like me? is it to much to ask you tell me if you do like me? I need to know what you are thinking. Are you still thinking of her? i want an answer not another question. Just Breathe tell me the truth tell me what i need to know. Ive written more poems and songs about you then i need to. I want to know.
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Your past stays with me. Even though i know i need to let it go. I wanted to stay friends but i hear the rumors, i try and tell you but you wont listen so make a decision. is this what you wanted?
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can someone give me a sign from up above? what do i do right now? can someone give me advice from here? i need it.
<333Kiley

They Dont Get It....

thats exactly how i felt

I've tried to tell them why...but i can never give them the whole story. They dont wake up every morning scared that one of their friends wont want to be friends anymore. Or that they will be alone. They dont pray every night that what happened in fifth grade wont happen again. I know what you are thinking. What happened in fifth grade? Well i didnt exactly have any friends. Sure some people would say hi but they had other people to walk and talk with. That year was miserable. Every year i think i can let go of that and start fresh. But i cant let go of that year. I cant let go of my fears. Every time my friend ditches me i feel like that what happened in fifth grade is going to happen again. I dont want them thinking im jealous im just scared that i will be alone again. They are so lucky they dont have to worry about this but i do every day. And i feel so alone, like no one will ever get it. I always feel like they wont ever get it. But i want those people to know that this is why i get sad at times. This is why i stop talking and look lonely. I go back to the times when people hated me. And im not annoyed by them asking whats wrong. Im annoyed because i dont want to think about whats wrong. So go ahead and ask now this is what i will tell you. Im scared and no matter how strong i look, when it comes to this im weak.

<333Kiley

Heyy peoples who enjoy reading my blog or just plain random ones!! So what is it like to know that the guy who has been in your dreams is gone? Well it's sad but you move on. I just keep seeing him and he talks to me but i can tell its not because he wants to its because im his last resort. Or he feels bad for me which i dont want him to. He should know that i have moved on, i have found someone else to put my feelings toward. I dont need anyones sympathy i can pull myself through what happens. I may seem fragile but i can look like im fine when i need to.

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Soo as I said before I have found a new guy. Yeahh his name is ****...yeah like im gonna tell you! LOL sorry but its kind of secretive this time ;). Anyway I'm just thinking this guy is gonna be a lot better than Matt. He seems nice, funny, cute, and not-likey to beat me up. I think this could turn out to be a good relationship. Is it just me or does it seem like fate. I mean I started liking him the day he broke up with his girlfriend. How crazy haha. And dont think that i like him cause of that because i liked him a little before but today it became solid. And i liked him today when i didnt even know they had broken up so ha!!!

He Left, You Left, Who Do I Have?...

Heyy everyone on my bus today these boys were calling me a "mexican" for those of you who know me I look NOTHING like a mexican for those who dont I'm white as a sheet. They were also saying how they were going to beat me up and "smack the glasses off my face." Like what the heck um yeah beat up a girl real mature cause i swear i will call the cops if they lay a hand on me! Then my bus driver said "if i ever hear you say you are going to beat up a girl or if you do i will get every girl on this bus to pick you up and drop you." Yeah doubt thats gonna work considering the fact they were still saying these things. I mean i hardly know them so what did i do to make them hate me?

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In other news Matt was kind of sticking up for me when they called me Mexican. He said "have you seen Kiley, shes as white as the sky." (it was cloudy today) but then when the kids said they were gonna beat me up he said "ohh *one of the boys' names* is going to kick your ***"

Yes very nice Matt now we all know that you enjoy watching a girl get beat up as long as its not sam, kaylah, carlie, or anyone besides me. I'm getting annoyed now. Not because he doesnt like me but because just doesnt do anything to stop these kids from saying they hate me.

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I was walking to lunch with my friend today and i had just gone to the book fair. I got a book I thought Sam would want to read. I saw her walking with her boyfriend and Tori. I called her name. She turned to look at me then turned away. I asked her what was up with that in lunch and she said she didn't want to leave her boyfriend. She may not have thought it sounded snobby but it kind of did. I told her i wasnt mad but her asking her was making me. What i was actually thinking was:

"Yeah I'm mad!!! You sound like a snob right now!!! Good to know who's better. I'm so happy i can finally understand the fact that your "boyfriend" who wont last as long as our friendship will is more important than me." I didnt say it cause i knew i would sound like a snob. What I'm trying to say is I saw this coming. Especially if it was with Matt. It didnt happen before because she didnt like her boyfriends that much. But now i can tell when Sam starts to like a guy she puts him first. And Sam if you ever read this I want you to know my sister and her BEST FRIEND SINCE FOREVER were ruined by a guy. My sister wont talk to her anymore and you wannna know the worst part. The girl isnt even going out with the guy anymore. I dont want that to happen to us.

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I like to keep things simple. I dont want to have a hard life. If i have a hard like i cant concentrate on whats really important. So i hate it when people make things complicated. It just doesnt help out very much now does it. So my advice to you who have things making their lives tough is silent time. Ok what i do is this go into the shower. Cover your ears. It sounds like a storm. When you uncover yours ears the water will sound so quiet its beautiful. Another thing is you could cry...always helps ;). Ok everyone ill write you tomorrow. Any ideas on what could make me bloggie better? Leave in the comments A.K.A: Your Thoughts.
<333Kileyy

I Like To Make People Smile...

No matter what happens I'm glad he's smiling. I know that I should be saying "What the FRENCH TOAST I saved your relationship so I should get some attention!!!" but thats not the way I am. I am happy if I can make people smile. So what? I may have lost a friendship but it's worth it knowing he's happy.

"I like his smile not because it's cute. Because seeing it makes me smile."

It's true. Now I know he's not paying attention to me or anything and I'm okay with it. I dont have a lot of guy friends and the ones I do leave in a few days. And the girl friends I have ditch me sometimes. Like today in lunch I can't stand it when Tori and Sam act like I'm wierd and start saying "Yeahh...okaay...we are gonna walk aways now." Like what the heck you were just being wierd too. And when they share secrets and start laughing. I mean when me and the girl who sits next to me in lunch were whispering we were talking about how much we hate it. And then when we leave lunch I'm left out of their croud and then don't even notice. Then when Tori and Sam split I start hearing Sam calling my name.

Now I may sound jealous but it happens EVERY day. It annoys the heck out of me.

Okayy well I just wanted that squared out of the way. Back to my guy probs haha. When I get on the bus he talks to me a little but leaves when his little crush gets on. He's way to good for that girl. Not that I like him I just mean he could get someone wayyyy better. I just know he could. Sure not a lot of girls like him but he had to AMAZING *cough cough me and sam cough cough* until he blew it. When that girl finally lets him go he will pop like a balloon then he wont have anyone to go to. How is he going to feel then??? Oh well i hope he can atleast find himself.

<333Kileyy

If I Die Young....

Would people remember me? Would they care? Would they be sad, happy, prepare to kill themselves?  I wish I could know. I feel like no one would care right now. I feel like it wouldn't be noticed. I feel like some people would cheer. I want to know if he'd cry over this, or only over the girl of his dreams. I want to know if they would wish they didnt make me sad before. I want to know if those two boys would wish they hadn't called me names. I want to know if those girls were actually my friends. I want to know if the girl who I think is my best friend but actually cares more for a girl who loves CHINA and sits next to her in lunch *cough cough* would cry forever or get it over it a few seconds later. I also want to know if the girl obsessed with mustaches will cry. I want to know if these people actually care! At times it seems like they don't...

<333Kileyy

Am I one...?




 

Heyy everyone. Life stinks for me right now. I just need to place my thoughts in order. People are annoying why dont they teach you in school about what to do when bullied non-stop? I mean its not that I'm being bullied like fighting but its like a rude bully type. I mean I dont think they would enjoy what I go through. Whatever I honestly hate everyone that does this to me its just so rude. I mean no one should be treated like this especially by a guy they thought was a friend. Would any of you go off and call a friend a rude word. I dont care is they say it is a compliment. It is rude a wrong. I am not even mean to them. I don't even know them. And just because they know my name does not give them the right to do this to me. It just isn't fair and i cant do anything about it. He wont have my trust anymore, he wont have my friendship, he wont have my care, he wont have my thoughts, and he wont have my laughs, love, or life! I can't take it, is this how he treats all his friends? Like crap?  Yeah well when I am successful in life, they will most likely be in jail. It's just how these types of things go. The nice ones live better, the rude live terrible. So go luck in life you three. You'll need it!



Left Out....

I never ever have friends who completely understand me. If i do have some that understand me they leave me out of EVERYTHING. Sometimes with Sam I always feel left out when she is with Tori. She and Tori like Black Veil Brides and they never even asked me if I liked them too. They just assumed i didn't. Another thing is we were walking from gym and Sam left me for Tori and never even questioned it when i walked away to someone else. They also always do cheer leading routines that make me left out. They sing songs i don't know. I also feel like I'm Sam's second choice compared to Tori. Finally Sam says she hates being interrupted but Tori always interrupts me and she never says anything just goes along with it. It's kind of like Tori never wants me to hang out with Sam, and I'm not sure if Tori likes me that much. So will I ever find a friend who understands me and likes to be with me? I don't think so.
<333Kiley

sorry for the curse

True Love...

Heyy everyone so yesterday i had a sleepover with one of my bestest friends. We decided to rent a movie and couldn't decide so we finally ended up picking "Letters to Juliet". I loved it sooo much. And now i believe in true lovee. It was just the cutest movie ever! I think anyone out there would enjoy it. It had some adult content like in one seen there was a middle finger. There was also a lot of kissing going on but i would say its okay for some younger children too. Its not hard to follow either and it always kept me on the edge of my seat. So yes thats what i did. I also saw "someone" i wish i hadnt(not Matt) it seemed like we were so close to being a little more than friends but later I felt we were two worlds apart. Oh well maybe we aren't meant to be....

Charlie(Christopher Egan) on left and Sophie(Amanda Seyfried) on right. <333

<333Kiley

Favorite Quotes From "Boy Meets World"

Clerk: I'm sorry, we don't give that kind of information.

Eric: Really? Well...
[produces $1]
Eric: Perhaps my friend Mr. Washington will help you change your mind.
Cory: We're gonna have a child? Wait, we've only kissed. I mean, I knew I was a good kisser, but *wow*.

Mr. George Feeny: I love you all,

[pauses]

Mr. George Feeny: class dismissed.

Mr. George Feeny: Believe in yourselves. Dream. Try. Do good

Topanga: Don't you mean "do well"?

Mr. George Feeny: No, I mean "do good".

Eric: So I said to myself, 'Kyle,'...

Alan: Kyle?

Eric: That's what I call myself.

Chet Hunter: I got two stupid boys. Y'all embarrass me in front of my dead friends

Eric: How great is this.

Jack: Do you know how great this is?

Shawn Hunter: This is great.

Angela Moore: I'm going to go over and look at this painting, entitled "Go With Him, He's Cute."
Jack: Eric?
Eric: [dressed like Noah] No, not Eric, not anymore

Jack: OK that's fine... ok, what is your name *now*?

Eric: Plays With Squirrels
Eric: See, duckies are good, cuz not only do they give you that non-threatening sense of security, but you can feed 'em crackers and you can ride 'em. See, duckies are the horsies of the ocean. No, I mean they are.
Cory: Okay, someone explain to me about duckies before I hit him with a spoon.
Amy Matthews: It's wallpaper.
Topanga: It's adorable.
Alan Matthews: It's for you room.
Eric: DUCKIES RULE.
Eric: Mr. F... F... F... Feeny
Mr. George Feeny: I love the Feeny call
Eric: [singing, twirling Cory around] For he's a jolly good fellow, for he's a jolly good fellow, for he's a jolly good fellow, which nobody can deny.
Eric: [the candles are knocked over, which light the curtains on fire] The curtains are on fire, the curtains are on fire, the curtains are on fire, which nobody can deny.
Eric: [firefighters start cutting the door down] The firefighters are chopping down the door now, the firefighters are chopping down the door now.
Cory: My brother is a moron.
Eric: Which nobody can deny!
[Eric returns from the future, where Cory is called Rory]
Eric: Rory?
Cory: Reric?
[In the future, Eric goes by the name Plays With Squirrels]
Mr. George Feeny: Mr. Matthews?
Eric: Mr. Squirrels.
Cory: Eric?
Eric: Plays With.
Topanga: We're supposed to see other people.
Cory: I'm supposed to see other people, you're supposed to wait until I die.
Eric: My grades aren't good enough to get me into college?
Mr. George Feeny: Your grades, my friend, aren't good enough to get you a Slurpee.
Cory: It's hard to imagine you as a boy. Did your parents call you Mr. Feeny?
Cory: Would you be my girlfriend?
[Topanga kisses Cory]
Cory: Yes or no?
[Mr. Turner and Mr. Williams break up a fight between Cory and Shawn]
Jonathan Turner: Hunter? Matthews?
Eli Williams: Did you guys know you were fighting each other?
Shawn Hunter: Cory and Topanga aren't together anymore.
Mr. George Feeny: Yes, I know, I too read Teen Beat, Mr. Hunter.

[Cory is writing a note]
Turner: Matthews, you're amazing, you have no idea what's going on, and yet you're still taking notes. Watcha writin'?
[Cory stuffs the note in his mouth]
Turner: Watcha eatin'?
Eric: Lose one friend, lose all friends, lose yourself

Eric: I married a moose.

Shawn Hunter: [Cory and Shawn are discussing Cory and Topanga's recent breakup] Cory, Topanga went out with another guy last night. I'm really sorry, man.
Cory: So we're the only two people in the world who still have hope for Topanga and me, and you're throwing in the towel?
Shawn Hunter: [nods] Sorry, Cory.
Cory: All right.
[turns away]
Shawn Hunter: You okay?
Cory: Yeah, sure. It's a strange feeling, though.
Shawn Hunter: What, knowing that it's finally over between you and Topanga?
Cory: [turns back to face Shawn] No, being the only one who knows it's not.
(this one is my absolute favorite i love it)

Eric: Oh my God! He killed Kenny!
Cory: We'll always know he was this tall.
Topanga: [Topanga reveals that she is not pregnant, just dieting because she believes she is fat] That's why Eric and I went on a diet.
[points to Eric]
Eric: [stuffing his face with food] I'm not fat. I'm pregnant.
Shawn Hunter: [Cory and Shawn imagine themselves as old men; they are in Chubby's] So how long have you been married?
Cory: What?
Shawn Hunter: [louder] How long you been married?
Cory: Who?
Shawn Hunter: [shouting] How long you been married?
Cory: They *want* you to take the rolls!




Okaay so those are my faves Enjoy! And if you've never seen Boy Meets World...you need too!
<333Kiley

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Heyy everyone and a happy Halloween to you all. Now if you didn't know getting scared is NOT my favorite thing in the world. I mean i dont mind to much but i wouldnt wish it upon myself. And even though Halloween is all about getting scared i actually love this holiday! It's so fun haha. So if you enjoy Halloween as much as me get out there and enjoy your night. If not...then dont go out there. Sit home and watch Halloweentown on Disney Channel haha. Dont make fun of me but i lovee that movie and so does my sister. Lol. Anyways me and my friends are heading out there and we are trick-or-treating our butts off. From where we come from its normal to trick or treat up until your last year of high school. This year me and my friends are going as the people from Alice in Wonderland. I'm being Alice, Sam is being Queen of Hearts(how appropiate because of how mean she is JK), and our friend Tori is being the one and only Mad Hatter! But there is something strange about us....we're dead! Yes i am going as the scar faced, bruised girl and so are they we will kill! To bad we are already dead haha. Alright ill post more info later. Have a great Halloween guys byee!

<333 Kiley





Boo!

I Fell For It Again....

I am soo stupid. He didn't like me. He was using me until she would talk to him again. She told me she hates him. Behind his back she tells me all this stuff about her hating him, but when he's there "Omg I lovee you!" What the heck? She has a boy friend and she goes and lets him like pretty much kiss her? Umm what happened to hating him? This is so crazy, if someone told Jake they wouldnt be together. Its not fair to him, or her boyfriend. She's such a two-timer. It's also not fair that she lets him do this and she knew i liked him. I'm pretty sure she doesnt like me... Whatever i need to get over it. I mean all i did was try to help him through everthing and when he comes back its like i was dreaming because the next thing i know he's with her. i think i like it better when he's mad. i know its not right but still....
<333Kiley



Too late....






I agree with all the quotes but mainly the one about pretending im not hurt....

  

Yeah thats me....





I feel that way too...

Updatess...

Yeppers well this is just so you know all the new stuff on my bloggie. Ok so here are some bullets of what i think you should know!:

• Instead of Comments is says "Your Thoughts" just something cuter so when ya wanna read of write a comment click Your Thoughts.
• When you click your thoughts you will see it says post a comment then under it it says "Reply to My Post Here", its just my way of making things simpler.
• Alright so you may have seen the new banner, yeah i just thoughts its cuter then what they had so thats what i put and i likee it.
• The new name is just better than Kiley's Blog by a lott....i like on the edge because of my meaning. What i mean by it is that im on the edge from breaking down when i write its the time when im "on the edge" so i can let out my feelings.
• The new background represents me more because its brighter and thats me but its slightly dark which i am sometimes.
• New colors are just more representing too!

So thats what you should know. Thanks for reading and enjoy my new and improved blog!
<333Kileyy

I'm Backk....***and so is he***....

Heyy everyone just wanna put an update out there that im back from my little vacation haha. Anyways Matt's come back into my life though we are starting off small. Like he walks with me in the mornings once Kaylah leaves, no lunch right now :(, and then he asks me to walk with him after school. Did you get that right? Yeah he ASKS me to walk with him...and he doesnt leave me for friends...except Sam whom we both lovee haha yesh Sam i lovee you. JK LOL.  Anyways things aree awesomee and im lovin' it!  Although he told Sam he lovess Kaylah and she said "do you really know what love is?" That inspired me to write a new song. Its called, "Show Me Love". I'm also writing some other new songs called "Hung Over", "Thinking of Me", and "In This Mess."  Hopefully they will be good ill give you updates on other stuff the rest of this week. Peace and Lovee everyonee.
<333Kiley

New York....

Heyy everyone just so you all know ill be in New York until Monday so i wont be posting from Friday until Monday. I'm so excited for New York I'll get to see my sister. It's gonna be soo much fun. Uh Oh gotta go. Time to pack. Today I'm going to Pennsylvania then by tomorrow I'll be going to New York! Peace guys!
<333Kiley

Even though its my first time haha.

Journal Challenge....

Heyy all my lovely viewers whom i love and care for lol. I've decided to do a Journal Challenge which i will try to do for the rest of my year. What i want to do is write in a journal every night for the rest of this year.(and until the end of summer) So what will i get if i complete? If i complete i will let myself have something awesome i havent decided yet. If i lose then i have to clean my whole house(suckish). Yeah so I'm gonna try and do it! If anyone wants to join in on it comment here!
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Hahaha, he's mine again and theres nothing you can do....

I figured things out with Matt! We are friends again we even hugged and he said he felt the warmth of friendship. Sam said this about the warmth of friendship.

"The warmth of friendship is like pee. Everyone can see it but only you can feel the warm feeling it brings."

Lol how wonderful is that quote? I lovee it. I even made Matt a bet(not one to be friends haha) so he's deffinitly gonna stick around for a while. His eyes kind of lit up when we were friends again...it's like hes...happier. Lol i guess you can say that. Alright peace and to all you BFF's out there.

"Keep your friends, sometime they are all you have. You need them like Peanut Butter needs Jelly. They also keep you going like they are your battery pack. Without them you won't live normally."

Alright everyone love your friends like i love mine!


Aww what a nice friend(and bribe)!



Done with you...forever...

I do not want him in my life anymore. Its just to hard. I mean he only likes that one girl. A lot. I asked him what his problem was he said he loves her. I said back but she doesnt love you but in my mind i was saying "and i love you". My one friend said why are you making a big deal of him not talking to you cause he wasnt...and i said no reason. but what i wanted to say was "wouldnt you be annoyed if the guy you liked likes another girl who likes him back but has a boy friend?" God that girl annoys me. She has a boy friend and she said she would kiss him if he didnt have braces. And this girl said she almost caught them kissing. I mean it isnt fair to her boy friend or me...considering the fact she knows i like him....I WILL GET HIM BACK!!!!

Chinese Horoscope

Omg its so correct that its scary just do it!!!



THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY OUTCOME.


DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT.

IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY
1st. Get PEN and PAPER
2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW
3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results.
4th SCROLL DOWN
ONE LINE AT THE TIME
DON..T READ AHEAD
otherwise
YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.


1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.

2. Next to the NUMBERS 1 & 2,
WRITE DOWN ANY
2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.



3. Next to the NUMBERS 3 & 7,
WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS
OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. SAME SEX IF GAY



CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT



4. WRITE ANYONES NAME
(like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)
next to 4, 5, & 6.




DON..T CHEAT OR YOU..LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID



5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11




6. Finally,
MAKE A WISH





ARE YOU READY?
HERE IS THE
KEY TO THE GAME




1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE THAT LIKE YOU is found in
SPACE 2

2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3
IS THE ONE YOU LOVE


3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in
SPACE 7
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4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in
SPACE 4


5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO
KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.


6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR
LUCKY STAR


7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE
PERSON IN NUMBER 3


8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE
PERSON IN 7


9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT
YOUR MIND


10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU
FEEL ABOUT LIFE


11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR
LUCKY NUMBER
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repost this
WITHIN AN HOUR OF READING THIS.

IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE.
* REPOST WITH
CHINESE HOROSCOPE (Freakishly Correct

Harry Potter...

Woohoo!! I finished!! Yeppers i finished ALL the Harry Potter books!! Its the best series ever not kidding. Haha i lovedd it im sad its dont though and i am going to see the 7th movie cause i watched all the others!!! Yaay im happy now!!!

Perfect Two...

Heyy! So you know that guy Matt right? Well he's telling me he might want a new girl friend. Hmm wonder what that means, hopefully it means me! I mean I think we are just...(dont call me self centered) perfect haha. No offense to Sam or anything but people talk about me and him being together not her and him. But it doesnt matter they are lucky to be great friends!!! Lolz uhh i want someone who wants to be near me, who loves me, who will pick me over all the other girls he knows, who will protect me from the rain, who will walk with me, who wont leave me for his friends, and who will kiss me and mean it.

<333 I think you could be that guy. No as a matter of fact I know you could and can be that guy. So just ask me if you love me so much!!!

<333Kiley...

Are You That Guy??

OMG GUESS WHAT!!!

If you look down at your keyboard U and I are together but underneath it says JK right next to that is LOL and if look to the right of that :p!!!!

Now on the left it says SAD because it says WE WERE above that and TOGETHER is all over just like my feelings, WAS is on the left too because I WAS IN LOVE but that LOVE split to each side.

So in conclusion I was sad because we were together but you broke my heart and sent my feelings all over just like together is all over the keyboard. Now I was in love with you but you split my heart in two just like L and O is on the right and V and E is on the left.

Music Is Life...

I love music!!! Lol but who doesnt am i right!!??!! Ok when i wanna get away i just listen to music. When im sad or upset i listen to music because i feel like it takes me to another world my world haha. Music is totally my life just wanted this to be known... lol byeee

<333Kiley

Yesss!!!!

Im Here For You...

Okaay so today we were on my bus as usual, when everyone found out Matt's ex girlfriend kissed her new boy friend today. Boy was Matt upset, he turned his ipod on high and didnt talk to anyone...but i found out hel likes this game on his ipod i like too lol. Anyways while he couldnt hear us(or so we think) me and my friend were talking and decided he needs a new girl friend... She reccomended me i asked her why me and she said cause you actually like him and you are closest to his age. and i said well i would but if you havent noticed he likes kayla not me. she said maybe we could change that... I'm hoping she's right because ive liked him since 5th grade. It just feels wierd about the stuff with sam. Like the fact she likes him too. I mean i dont want her to not have any chances with him its just it seems like everyone is trying to help get me and him together. It really stinks...for her and me because i dont want to ruin our friendship over him. But i think we are close enough friends to understand niether of us will probably be with him forever so yeahh. alright who loves this pic? I do!!! kk byeee
<333 Kiley



"Play your cards right to get love."- Kiley



I Hope You Love Me...

Heyy everyone just as an input for you before i start todays riot about boys (lol like always!!!) i just want you to know i use mainly song titles as my titles and this one is an original by me. yes it goes along with this writing. Alright now to my thoughts:
I never knew it could be so hard. So hard to tell the guy of your dreams your feelings. But i tried, the first time i had done this i wasnt made fun of because i think everyone knows they have crushes and they can be embarrasing. So the next time you are making fun of someone for liking someone else remember that next time it could be you. Anyways i tried telling him but it didnt get out as well as i thought it would, although i think he has a good idea that its me. its just so many people were around us and...i didnt want them all to know unless we were dating. i mean if someone saw us the totally would think we were dating. i mean we hug a lot and i mess up his hair and he touches me(not the way you are thinking!!!) but is that stuff normal for friends?? and today on the bus he told his ex she wasnt his friend he said i was. he also said that he liked a girl who didnt notice him that way...i wonder who it could be lol. alright peace for now!!
<333Kiley

Til' I Forget About You...

To a guy i thought was the one i would be with forever, if something ever happened...
Yeah so there was this guy and he was amazing. I thought we really clicked...but we never did. I mean if people saw us they would think we were a couple, especially they way he looked at me like he adored me. That look was what told me he liked me, because i saw that look on his face last time he had a girl friend. Then it disappeared until one day, when we were swimming together. Everyone saw the look well except his parents. But his sister who is one of my friends saw it and she thought he asked me out. It was almost as if he did, I mean what guy hugs a girl 24/7 and smiles at her like he would to a girl friend. Okay probably some guys but still. Anyways, that look stayed, and it stayed , and stayed, but one day i saw him looking at a girl with that look. The girl was in his class and i stared at her with devil eyes but he still gave her the look i had learned to love. Thats when i started to ignore him and slowly the look disappeared. He didnt even give it to the other girl. i must've hurt him, but he learned to live, considering the fact he got the other girl as his girl friend. So i gave up and guess what? I havent seen him since...and i dont want to so ha!
<333Kiley

Love Like Woe...

Thats what its like for me when i am around the guys i like. If i have conversations with them the whole time it is just like woe... Most people know what i mean right? Like how did this happen??? lolz but ya know its like i stepped onto a race car track haha i could be hit by the feeling(car) anytime. XD wierd view of it but yeahh. ok well thats all i gotta say. oh and also my version of a quote you all know:

"When one door closes you are stuck until you find the person that is your key."

Alright thats all for today!!! cyas
<333Kiley!!!

To those who build me up and make sure i dont fall...

Heyy all my besties!!! You know who you are!!! Here are some shout outs for the people i love!!! These are the people who made me who i am!!!
Sam, i love you my little lumpy(no homo lol), thanks for being so awesome and not boring!!!
Tati, you are so fun i loves you!
Tori, omg when you are around me i cant stop laughing haha put that in your baloon and pop it!!!
Matt, your the best guy friend a girl could have!!!
And tons of other peoples like jordan you guys make my days happier!!!
kk you all put arrows through my heart!!
---<--3--->
<333Kiley!!!

I Dont Miss You At All...

Ok dan if you happen to ever read this(which i hope you do) then know that i hate you. I do not like you and never will again. Just because you think i do doesnt mean its true and its not i dont miss the days when i did like you. When i think of them i might just throw up. I dont miss you at all so bye...
<333Kiley

Your Biggest Fan...

I can't stop thinking about him. Especially because he's not home right now. I wish I didnt miss him but I do. I just dont get why he is with her again... She doesnt even like him. If you dont know who I am talking about its Matt if i havent said it well hes going out with Kayla again. She keeps saying she is only going out with him so he wont bother her. I mean is that a good reason to go out with someone??? i dont think so lol...whatever.
~Kiley~

Who is my Mr. Right?...

I know i said que sera sera but seriously is fate smart enough to find our mr. rights??? i mean how many people out there suddenly walked into school one day and new that this one guy is your mr right i doubt anyone. so yeah lol but i guess i might find my guy. someday...

Que Sera Sera...

Yeah i know i used that term last post but i love it. Right now its me and Sam's life lol. It means: 

"Whatever will be, will be."

Or you can say it means whatever happens, happens. So we wont try to make things what we want, we will believe in fate. If it wants us to be with someone, fate will find a way. Yes we may try to get someone to like us by flirting but if you've been liking a person for maybe a year and they suddenly ask you out do you think it was your countless flirting, or fate? I pick fate...but leave your thoughts in the comments below. By the way feel free to ask me and Sam any questions, maybe about your relationships or ours. Anyways I've been thinking about Que Sera Sera and everytime i do it makes me feel happy. I dont know why but it makes me feel like im doing something right. For myself and for other people. I dont know why other people but maybe because i wont be bothering them with my lovey dovey problems. haha but maybe ive bothered people by telling them about my thoughts on boys. well sorry to those people now i know que sera sera. Ok well thats all for now by guys!
~Kiley~

harder than you know....

Heyy Kiley and Sam here!! Well me and Sam have both thought of my advice and have decide que sera sera. Which means "whatever will be, will be." so we arent going look at the ground and bump into something or look all around and trip, we are going to look ahead and hope for the best. But its harder than you know to stop searching. We are thinking we will always fall head over heels for guys but not let it take over my life. Its like we are birds. We try to fly the first time and get scared, so sometimes we just need a push. And what i mean by that is sometimes we try not to love and we go for a guy but we need a friend to push us and help us to remember where we are going and why we are. So thankyou to all my friends i love you all and i love you the most sammy you da bomb girl! So you keep chillin' my home fried grillin'! Lol peace everyone(i will try not to love you **** but its harder than you will ever know. Oh who am i kidding i love you ***** **** **** jk its just ****)
~Kiley~

Is it harder for us...or them.....

Sam if you are reading this I feel bad...real bad...i hate hearing about you feeling bad, but I think this feeling is something neither of us can avoid... He has always been there for you and on the bright side he probably always will be, but maybe he just doesnt know how to think yet. Sam you two have been friends for a long time, and he's always thought of you like that, but now maybe he's thinking of you in a different way, but isnt sure of his feelings. I mean...guys arent good at feelings, not like we are anyways. So it might be harder for them. Although maybe I'm entirely wrong, maybe he doesnt think of you like that. But Sam you cant be thinking of that. You have a life so go live it dont be stuck worrying about some guy, thinking about him climbing to your window like in fairtales. Because thats what they are fairy tales wait for the right guy to be you fairy tale. Let him find you dont look for him. Sure we may think of guys as cute or hott, but it shouldnt be anymore then that. We should go live in the present not the past or future. Dont look ahead and dont look back. Look at the ground and keep walking this troubled path we call life.
~Kiley~

I Want To Know If You Will Treat Me Well...

Heyy everyone! It was a no-go today on Sam and Matt which means he's still free!(no offense sam) Well this just makes me want him, i mean i would say yes if he asked me out but would he treat me good? I hope so but who knows... Well i guess thats it haha seeya!!!
~Kiley~

If you asked me for my heart, there's no way that I'd say no...

Ummm about that title...yeah i had to use it... You may ask why but its because...I cant stop thinking about Paul. Not this new kid at my school who's kind of cute...the old Paul, but I wont go back to him. Who I really want to talk about is...Avery. I swear he was staring at me. He mustve been, lol. I know if sam reads this she will say something but stilll haha sorry sam when you read this sorry! lol peace!
~Kiley~

I Guess Im Happy For You...

Yeah well if just learned that Matt(a guy i sorta like in my school) likes Sam. Yeah I'm happy for her but I'm kinda sad it's not me. But not sad enough to ruin it for her, actually I'm gonna help them get together... ***WARNING: YOU MAY GET CONFUSED BY THE FOLLOWING***
Well sam hugged him twice since school started. If he starts to crack and not want to ask her i will say, "Matt dont you think those two hugs meant something?" Haha that should get him to ask her haha. They better get together or i will be so...ive put a lot of hard work into this. Anyways byee guys!
~Kiley~

Back to School!

Heyy everybody! So as you can see I just went back to school today, so I might not be able to write as often but trust me i will still post! Haha, well today wasnt the best day... Well for starters me and sam arent in the same classes lol and i got lost twice! But i guess it was still okaay... well bye
~Kiley~

sicky sick sick lol

Hey everyone well as you can see from the title im sick. but no worries cause im feeling better! I cant believe I start school in 4 days! I still havent gotten my schedule so i better get it soon or else I'll be walking into school not knowing where to go!!! Lol. Well thats all for today ill write later byee!

The Death of My Love???

Yeah so i like(d) this guy. He started acting like a jerk so i gave up on him...sorta. Well my friends told me to, and i told them i did, but i didnt exactly give up on him, well not completely. But im planning on it haha...maybe lol

but i think i should give up on him...i mean i know im stronger than that, but i think love has been overpowering me. I mean i was so sure he was perfect and i forced myself to believe it but maybe he's not so perfect, although neither am i lol. but is anyone exactly perfect...no. So who knows maybe he just needs some work...we'll see...

NeverShoutNever

I swear I'm in love with him! He's my favorite singer, I listen to him all day long. Now who am I talking about??? Christopher Drew Ingle!!! He's the singer in NeverShoutNever(look him up on youtube). Here's his pic.

yeah thats him hahaha. Well watcah waiting for? Look him up on youtube!!!

What's the BUZZ!!??!! (1)

Hey people! This is my new column on my blog called Whats the buzz? It's about celebs and their probs. Ok we all know about Lindsay Lohan, right? Yeah she had a nice career, you may have seen some of her movies. Yeah well her life was nice until she landed herself in jail. She was sentenced to i think 90 days. But of course as she is Lindsay Lohan I think she spent 22, yeah well to keep it short she got out early. She had 24 hours with her family before she went to rehab. I'm pretty sure she got out of that not to long ago. But keep your eyes peeled and ears open for more dish on her, cause whats next? Thats all from todays What's the BUZZ?

My Own Blog

Hi!!! Yeah so, you probably know about me and my friends blog xxxinmemoryofxxx. Well I decided i wanted my own too so this is it! Hope you enjoy!